This is the Morning Watch with Church44 – Saturday June 20th 2026, 01:00! This morning I’m Thinking about a second journal for the rest of the people. Each morning I hand-write a journal entry for myself to reflect on paper my feelings during the morning watch, but what about everyone else who I dearly love around the world? My Brothers and Sisters in Christ who may need a little encouragement or inspiration during a difficult time?
Recently I have been feeling the call to full time ministry, but at 42 years old (well 42 in about 2 weeks, but who’s counting? lol), you would think that by now I should have learned my lesson about repentance and turning from sin right? Wrong! Every day I still give into temptation and turn from God and commit some sort of sin, usually multiple times per day. Most of the time I tell my self “it’s not that bad” or “this is just a normal part of society today”, but these lies and continual habitual sin have created a barrier in my relationship with The Father!
This barrier prevents me from accomplishing my calling because it blocks the power of God in my life. I do believe that I will go to heaven, but each time I try to do something for God now, it fails, or at least it seems to fail, and I believe that is because God doesn’t want to have a bad reputation by allowing a man who is living in Sin to represent Him here on Earth, even though He still loves me, but like the prodigal son, I have to be removed from His presence until I am willing to follow His rules!
I am convinced that the only truly unforgivable sin we can commit as Christians is the wilful sin of Rejecting the Holy Ghost and replacing God’s Spirit with Satan’s while we live here on Earth. This is a very specific sin of attributing the things of God to the devil, or calling the devil your father and openly rejecting God both with your mouth and in your heart. So I’m sure that I will go to heaven even though I openly and willfully drink too much or lust in my heart or lash out in anger, because I am covered by the Blood of Jesus, but God will keep me isolated from the rest of the World until I truly repent of these smaller sins.
Isn’t it interesting how that works? It makes me wonder though how so many people out there seem to be doing God’s work (like these false teachers and preachers in these mega-churches) and appear to be receiving the blessings of God, and yet they will go to hell because they rejected his Spirit, and yet here I sit alone in the middle of nowhere unable to reach the World for Jesus because I won’t stop drinking, etc. But today that changes! Today I fight! Today I will win in Jesus Name! Today I declare Jesus Christ has Won the War, defeated death and the devil and sits on the throne as KING OF KINGS, AND LORD OF LORDS.
Today is the day that the Lord has made, I will rejoice and be glad in it! I will strive for the mastery of the flesh and overcome the devil in my own life as Jesus Christ did while he lived as a man. I will put on the Armour of God and go to war against the forces of darkness in this World and walk victoriously in the Spirit of God as a Child of God and heir of God through Christ!
[Galatians 4:4-7 KJV] “{4} But when the fulness of the time was come, God sent forth his Son, made of a woman, made under the law, {5} To redeem them that were under the law, that we might receive the adoption of sons. {6} And because ye are sons, God hath sent forth the Spirit of his Son into your hearts, crying, Abba, Father. {7} Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.”